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Don't take anything for granted

All this death really makes me think about life. It makes you realize how quickly you can lose someone you care about.
You really need to enjoy every moment you have with the ones you love. You need to take time out to show those that you care about just how much you care. Show them that you love them and need them. Make sure they have no doubt about how you feel for them. Remind them often how much they mean to you. You really never know when someone can be taken away and you don't want any regrets or anything left unsaid.
Maybe that's the lesson I was supposed to learn from these last 2 weeks.
If so, lesson learned. I'm changing how I live my life.

Rest In Peace Candice

On Sunday, June 26th another angel was welcomed into heaven. Candice was an amazing woman. She fought hard and was so brave. I look up to her so much and I hope that if I ever go through something like that I can be as strong as her. I'm sad to see her go and yet, as everyone says, she's in a better place. I hate hearing stuff like that....but I know it's true. I am happy that she's not in pain anymore. I just wish she was never in pain and could still be here and healthy. I hate that bad things can happen to good people.
My thoughts and prayers are with her family and everyone back in Tooele. She was such a great spirit and I know that her and Pam are happy in heaven together. I'll always remember how happy she was when I saw her last summer, surrounded by friends and family.

Rest in peace Candice. I hope you knew how much I loved you and your kids and the person that you are.
<3

Lowes/Paint Boy

Once upon a time I saw a guy that works in the paint department that looks like Channing Tatum (NO LIE) So I smiled and chatted with him. A few minutes later I was in the aisle when I saw him walking towards me. He stopped and smiled and said, "I just wanted to let you know you have really gorgeous hair!" I blushed and tried to keep it cool by saying "Aww thank you!" meanwhile on the inside I was melting and dancing....at the same time.
I've spent the last year and a half going to Lowes hoping to see him.
Flash forward to today. While getting paint I see him come from a different aisle and see me! Ahh yes. More dancing on the inside. Although on the outside I can't help but smile. He kept looking at me and looked like he was going to talk to me if the stupid customer he was helping would leave him alone. My Mom and I go to look at paint samples and he's standing right by us helping the customer. I look over and he smiles and the eye contact is great (sometimes I just LOVE eye contact) but then we have to leave.... So as we pass by the paint I see him and I make it obvious that I'm looking at him. We go to the self check-out and a few seconds later he comes and is talking to the employee right by us. I peek over at him and more wonderful eye contact is shared. Then we can't put it off any longer and it's time to actually leave so we walk towards the door. But I make sure he sees me turn to look at him as I leave.
Definite connection between us.
AND HOLY DANG HE IS ATTRACTIVE. I think I'm going to make it a point to visit Lowes a lot more this summer. Let's see what happens (:

Knocked down again...

Most people use these blogs to talk about the great things in their life or the funny things that happened that day. But, not this entry...life has knocked me down once again.
Candice Heaps is sick :( She lives back in Utah just like Pam did. I hate that I have to use past tense for that sentence. Pam DOES. I should be able to say that...
Candice had cancer. She fought it off and we all beat it together. But I just found out she's in the hospital unresponsive since 5:00 yesterday. I had just seen her last summer...Her hair grew back, she was happy surrounded by friends and family, a big smile on her face as we raised money for her. But now she's slipping away...just a few weeks after Pam. I feel like the older I get the more people I lose and the harder life gets.
Love the people in your life with all your heart. Be kind to them and show them how much they mean to you. Let them know you care. You never know when they suddenly won't be there.
<3

Makes me sad to see him sad

Yesterday my friend was sad, you know, the guy I'm always talking about? He was upset about life and a certain girl. Which this girl is my friend but sometimes I just want to hit her (in a loving way) just to see if any sense gets smacked into her. I mean I hate seeing him all upset and bummed out and acting like a lump that could care less about anything. This girl just kinda was the tip of the iceberg for him. And there's nothing I can do. I mean he's not like dark and creepily depressed. He still hung out with me and enjoyed music (which makes him happy) but now he's bumming tonight and wants to be alone. Lame. Because this girl doesn't realize what she has in front of her! Silly girl. I wish I could just make her open her eyes and be like "yo! marry him! now!" I mean he's a great guy. She's crazy. And I wish I could help. I hate seeing him all bummed out. I wish I could fix it :(

2 great days

As you can tell from the title of this entry, the past two days have been awesome!

Wednesday

I hung out with Kevin. We hit up the car wash first and as dorky as it is, I love car washes! His even got rainbow soap. It was pretty awesome. Then as we were driving to Celebration Station we saw a guy jamming out in the Sherwin Williams van and he even pulled out a harmonica and started playing it! It was pretty amazing. Then we went to Celebration Station and he was kind enough to play for my game of Mini-Golf. We only paid for 18 holes but we cheated and played all 36. Then we went for one Go-Kart ride and decided it was time to hit up Sonic for a slushie. We then drove around, not entirely sure where we were going until we ended up in Target. We wandered around Target for a while where I made a fool of myself. We had just turned into the mirror aisle when I said "well aren't we vain coming to Target to look at ourselves in the mirror!" Kevin busted out laughing and took me into the next aisle where he explained that when I said that the lady in the aisle looking at mirrors gave me an awful look and probably thought I was talking about her...awkward. Anyways then he dropped me off back at home and I went to Institute. 8 people showed up so I think that made my Dad pretty happy and it was a good lesson which included pizza. Then I went to the park across the street with Rachel and Koury and we messed around until 9:30. Course then I was stuck in the parking lot waiting for my ride...Koury waited with me...Kevin was nice enough to offer to come save me but I decided it would be okay if Koury took me home. But then I went over to Kevin's plopped down on his couch and he showed me Little Big Plantet. *If you don't know what this game is, you MUST check it out. It's one of the cutest games ever!* Then we watched Boondock Saints until 12. Good day.

Thursday

The day started off with a bang when our carbon monoxide alarm went off and my Mom freaked out and almost pounded my door down to make sure I was still alive. Then I bummed around all morning. Ricky came over about 2:00 and we decided to go to Harris Teeter to buy the ingredients for the famous Chocolate Pie. We got back and I made it for him, he ate his whole piece which is very impressive seeing as how rich it is. I almost couldn't finish mine. (as I'm typing this, I have a huge food baby and I feel sick) then he schooled me in pool. Officially I won both games but only because he scratched on the 8 ball one time and one time he accidentally hit it in. If that hadn't of happened, I definitely would have lost. But! Then we played ping pong. I won the first 2 games! Then we played 2 more and he won...and for the tie breaker, "the championship" he won. But they were all very close games. We played one more game right before he left...he won that one too. But it was still a lot of fun. I'll probably go over to Kevin's later tonight to watch another movie.

I'm loving these summer days and summer nights. We talked about going kayaking tomorrow morning. Sadly I work from 4-11 tomorrow night...and 10-4 Saturday morning... but Kevin said he would come hang out with me Friday night. I just need something to look forward to.... maybe something awesome will happen Saturday night.

Got friends in all the right places

You know what I love? New friends!!

I've made a lot of new friends over the last couple...weeks? It feels much longer than that. I suppose it's not. BUT! I still have new friends and I already love them!

Let me just start out with stating that yes I still love my old friends and some I got even closer with.

Like Cathrine! My roomie <3 She has definitely been there for me when I need her most. She even lets me cry while curled up on her bed getting tears on her pillow for silly things. But I'm definitely lucky to call her my roomie. Even if Target takes up most of her life.

And next shout out to...I feel like I shouldn't say names... cause what if someone read this and thought it was about them, but really it's not...awkward?

I'll just let you assume whoever you want to assume and if you assume it's you then hey, maybe it is! Lucky you!

Next person I need to shout out is awesome. We hadn't ever really talked until a couple weeks ago. He's friends with my roomie and so I'd met him a couple times through her, although we did not really talk...But now we do and he is awesome! He's so chill. It's kinda perfect. He's so laid back that it makes every situation just seem chill and comfortable. I do feel comfortable with him. Not sure why since I guess I haven't even really known him that long...But there's just something about him that makes me feel safe and comfortable! Plus he's supa sweet. Yes, I just said supa. Because in my head, that's how I said it.He is though. Granted, he doesn't like being called this or nice (if he ever ends up reading this, he'll definitely know I'm talking about him now... so Hi!)

Not sure why he doesn't like being called a good guy...but he is (whether or not you admit it) Which is a good thing. In fact he's the guy that let me borrow his camera (Nicky) and yup, now he definitely knows this is about him...and probably other people do too. Oh well. He's awesome. I pretty much know he's there for me and he's always nice enough to let me bum rides off of him.

Next person, (ha! someone I'll make it harder for you to guess...) is hilarious! Okay actually, I'm going to talk about 2 people at once. They are both hilarious and sweet and so open and welcoming. They are both so sweet to everyone and nice to me when I was the young, new kid (which I suppose I still am...) but whenever there is a group thing. I love knowing they are there just cause they never fail to make me laugh.

And last person, I'm just starting to get to know him. Let me just make this short and sweet. He's adorable. He's really sweet and kind to everyone and is just a straight up good guy. He like radiates goodness. He also has an adorable laugh.

So that's it. I'm making new friends and I love it! I have a feeling it's going to be a great summer (:

My dearest Daddy

Cliche to write about my Dad on Father's day?

Pretty sure everyone else that has a blog has done it too.

So, it's my turn (:

Kenneth Harvey Schmidt.

Also known as Pops, Daddio and Daddy.

Let's face it, our relationship is not perfect. In fact, today we had a huge misunderstanding which resulted in me crying my little eyes out for half the day. Yay.

But after all the fights and misunderstandings there are always the roadtrips, hiking, daddy daughter dates, beating my childish fears, wiping my silly tears, hugging me when he knows that's all I really need, letting me cuddle him when my Mom won't, doing puzzles together, taking me to concerts and sharing our love for music, sharing our love for books and our many, many discussions about Harry Potter and even our trip to Harry Potter World where he comforted me when I faced my fear of rollercoasters. I'll miss his stupid puns that he comes up with so quickly it's ridiculous. I may roll my eyes everytime but he knows I love it. Especially his joke about Denial and especially his joke about Mr. Mustard being on the table while playing Clue. I'll miss our roadtrips and our crazy car games. I'll miss stretching at rest stops along the road and our crazy videoblog ideas.

I'll miss his unconditional love for me and the rest of the family. I'll miss how much of dorks we both are. I'll miss cooking out and eating smores with him and how he can roast the perfect marshmellow. I'll miss how much he believes in the church and how much he loves teaching.

I love him so much. I think we're perfect for each other. We complete each other.

My weaknesses and strengths fit perfectly with his.

We're two puzzle pieces that fit together perfectly.

"EGG!"

Rest in Peace

I don't know who made this video but I like the pictures she has. Today is the funeral for Pam. I wish I could be there. Almost more than anything I wish I could be there. Rest in peace Pam. You will be dearly missed by all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6F5dbEq2HI&feature=share

Nicky the Nikon camera (:

So a guy I know is engaged (yay!) and he asked if I wanted to do his engagement pictures (double yay!) Although, at first I freaked out. I don't even have a nice camera. So, while telling my friend about this, he offered to let me borrow his! He is soo sweet (although for some reason he gets mad if you ever tell him this or say anything about him being nice). So I named the camera Nicky. It's a Nikon D50 and a super nice camera. I'm kind of in love with it. I've been playing with it ever since I got it. I even made my friend pose and do a photoshoot with me. So here's a few of my favorite pictures I've taken the last couple days!

Pretty great camera huh??

May Angels Lead You In

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pQo9OQlIB8

On June 10th Pam Mamales passed away.

She was one of the sweetest ladies I knew. She raised her boys right and she really loved them. She told Bryna that she always thought I was sweet and genunine and it just makes me want to be what she thought I was. She was always there for her boys, through all the crap they all had to go through.

Sometimes, I hate how unfair life can be. As if life hadn't been hard enough for them, she had to get sick and not able to get better. But, she did have time. She's been sick for a while and she was able to say her goodbyes. Kyden was able to come to terms with it and sometimes I think he handles it better than I do. Although, he hasn't talked to me about it yet...so I wouldn't really know. But he knows I'm always here for him. I wish I could help. I wish I could've done something. That's something that I hate...I don't like when things are out of my control...most of the world is like that though, out of our control. It just doesn't seem fair that so many bad things can happen to so many good people and we can't even do anything about it.

My prayers are with their family, and that comforts me. I prayed for him this morning and I was comforted. I know Kyden's not alone and I know they'll all see each other again. It's all a part of the plan but sometimes the plan hurts and all we can do is keep going.

Today, the world got a little darker, life got a little harder and the weight on our shoulders got a little heavier.
Rest in Peace Pam. May angels lead you in. <3

Temporary Roomate

I haven't blogged in a while...here's my excuse.

1. It's the first real week of summer so I'm trying to actually enjoy it instead of being on my laptop. Which I have! I have definitely enjoyed it. I had pool days, I floated down the Dan River, made a late night trip to Cook Out, went downtown for first Friday and saw Jonas Sees in Color play, I made new friends, went to Mario's, saw the new X-Men (which was AWESOME!) and probably more that I just can't remember cause my brain is warped from the sun.

my other excuse....

2. I've had a temporary roomate! Michelle has been living with me for the past week. So she's been there for most of these experiences. It's been a good week.

I graduate tomorrow. It's crazy. I can't believe it and yet I'm so ready for it. Honestly I don't even really want to go to graduation. It's going to be a long process. I'm ready to be done. But of course, I love the experience and it will be fun. I know. I'm just being a bum (:

The drummer for Jonas Sees in Color saw me creeping on him. Sure was attractive though!

Ahh the joys of Marios. Best and biggest pizza you can get for 3 dollars.

My temporary roomie with my real roomie. Love these girls (: